Nothingness

Does is always feel this way
to stare into space
without a thought devoid of all emotion

looking at the blank spaces

passing time by just hearing faraway morbid voices
chattering in gibberish
unhearing not making sense

just breathing and not respiring
just seeing but not percieving
just walking not striding
hearing but not listening
holding and not grasping

paralysed to ground
wanting to say so much but when you
open your mouth no sound comes
wanting to laugh and jump but your body is frozen

as if numb refusing to take orders
to feel to hear to see to think
a tidal wave of nothingness

probably this is uncomfortably numb....