How long

There are many places I've been to ..........
some through fantasy some with my father .
Every year come May we'd go on a family holiday .
Those fifteen days mum would get all the rest she'd need to battle out another year
whilst me and dad all the excercise to eat the buffet breakfast and lunch .

It's spring time .
It just rained last night the earth smells wonderful ,
it's aroma fills my nostrills and lighten's my heart .
I went out for a jog this morning and what a beautiful sight the road
was carpeted with pink and white flowers , while the birds chirped .
Yes , one can still hears such sounds in Bangalore .
As I ran along the curved road towards the lake I felt like I was on a holiday far away from the madening crowds and distance away from reality ( my prelims !!) .

An odd sorta of calm I felt being so close to Mother Nature .
I stopped to catch my breath and was real lucky to spot
a butterfly coming out it's cucoon ........

I remember the story they used tell us in school about how one day a boy in his eagerness to help the butterfly come out of it's cucoon , left it grounded for life making it unable to fly .

This sorta reminds me of my parents in their zest to protect their daugter they won't allow me to experiment and fall and learn on my own .
They try to sheild me from the real harsh world but for how long I ask?
How long will you try to hide me from the real world with rules and regulations .
Am I not old enough to learn on my own .

If you'll had your way I would probabaly would never have learnt the car or the bike or even Bungee jump but those things have taught me much that you couldn't have .
The first time I crashed into the tree made me aware of road rage and maniac drivers and of course that car repairs are expensive !
That bunjee jump I saved five hudred bucks for I felt surreal above all earthlings it was some intoxication .

Ma and dad I do know I'm impulsive and rebellious but don't you think I ought to explore the world and it's ways on my own without you guiding me .

Somehow I feel limited in this world you've shown me , in your zest to give me everything
you've probabaly given me too much or too little .

I want to do things at my will take decisions on my own and be responsible for it alone .

I have tried in vain to explain to you I have rebelled , fought endlessly ,
argued till dawn about freedom and other such things but it was turned down simply because
I am still too young .
When will you ever accept it that I have grown i'm a big gir , l I can handle my self a bank account and the car too .
I need me space too . I need to fly to spread my wings and touch the sky .

So please please let me go for that Ladhak trip with my friends
You've given me so much so many lovely holidays but this will be different .

How long should I wait
how long will it take for me to be "old enough "
Please don't turn this down ......
It's ladakh !!!!!